Saturday Morning musings

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Yes, I know it's time I wrote something. I feel it too. But somehow, everytime I sit in front of the laptop, everytime I feel as if I have a few words to type, everytime I read someone else's blog, my words just disappear...as words in the wind do!





I don't believe I am comparing myself to others, I am just experiencing some or other block right now. Personally I believe it comes from me being too busy. When I get very busy (and productive) at the office, and I come home exhausted at 5pm which has been happening the last 3 weeks with year end and such deadlines, my brain basically just freezes. So damned be whatever it was I wanted to say, my fingers are too tired to equate what my mind is thinking and my mind then goes on strike and refuses to think any words anymore. It certainly is a vicious cycle for someone who needs to write, as I need to. (It may not seem so to you, believe you me I have a need to write most days). Even if it's just a few scribbles.





I have tried and am continuing to try various remedies.





I have spent quiet time with myself every morning for the past forever. Like now, I am the only one up in the house on a lovely fresh Saturday morning. I have listened to the VERY early calling of the birds this morning - must have been early 5am - mainly Crested Barbets and maybe one or two others I don't yet recognise - abd then now, after 6.30 am the birds quieten down and all I hear is the humming of our refrigerator. The windows are open, the fresh breeze and sounds enter and it's just me myself and ....whatever......Sunday mornings my neighbours lets his big birds out of some or other cage and then we really have a noisy wake-up to a sounds-like-parroty-breakfast.





I also spend quiet time with myself in the evening, after the kids have gone to bed and hubbie is working on the computer. Time that is dedicated to writings. By then though, around 9pm I am usually dead tired and can't link two words together.....Note that I don't spend quiet time just because someone says so...I actually





a) Like it (such an insipid word to describe my need for silence)


b) and I need the time to get my thoughts out of the grey matter and into my concious matter, whatever colour that might be. Whenever I drive to work or home it's usually in silence so that the grey matter can rest from the office to home so I'm refreshed when I greet my family, or that I'm refreshed for the office after a busy morning getting ready for school with the girls.





I am quite busy I know - I have demanding studies coming up, demanding work deadlines, a busy family of 2 high school girls and a hubbie (yes, very big and busy I know) - sigh, and all I want to do is fit this all in and do some writings. Ha.





SO I limit myself to reading yours and others blogs (not too many) and I type the words on days like today when my fingers are faster than my brain closing down.





Have a wonderful weekend all. I personally am going to have coffee and breakfast with a best friend, spend some time in my garden, do one or two urgent reports for work, continue to clear some papers I mentioned before...it is progressing...slowly.... watch some good cricket on the telly if all and sundry are not washed away (SA vs India) , and make a delish dinner from Jamie's 30 Minute meals I received for Xmas. Not that it takes me 30 minutes, it takes me about 60 or 90, but the recipes are great and all the effort is good for me...














LG