No 49 week 19 Oct
1. How do you typically react in a sudden, extreme, pressure-filled crisis? Would we want you nearby in an emergency?
Well I’ve never really been in such an extreme situation so no idea really. I do feel that however I wouldn’t go into a total scream, and would be able to help out as best I can....
2. Caramel apple-caramel sundae-caramel corn-caramel macchiato...of the four, which carmel treat would you choose?
Caramel apple or sundae....
3. Is there such a thing as destiny? Explain.
Hmm. I believe that God has a ‘plan’ for us when we are born and that we are His children, but we often sway the path to getting there in terms of what we choose in life. I don’t for eg believe it was “destiny” or even “God’s will” that my brother shot himself at 21 years old. I believe we travel this road of life and we actually make our life through our choices. So I guess that’s a no to “destiny”. But in other ways I do believe in God.
4. What's your favorite piece of furniture? I'm referring to something currently in your possession as opposed to something on your wish list.
Not really worried about stuff like that. I love old bookcases, probably ‘cos they’re filled with books!! I have a kist which I inherited from my mom, nothing too fancy but I would say that is my most treasured piece of furniture and would certainly HAVE to take with me if I had to move anywhere.
5. Wednesday night marks the start of the 2011 Baseball World Series. Did you know? Do you care? Will you be watching? Ever been to a professional baseball game? If you're not an American do you find the title 'World Series' annoying or amusing?
Not an American so Baseball not on my map of sports. I find the Americans using “World Series” for any sport totally amusing and ridiculous but don’t waste my energy on disliking them. I’m certainly not going to change their minds so........As an “english speaking” person of the world however I do LOVE love love cricket...and yes we’ve started with cricket in South Africa and are playing the Aussies, my all time favourite opponents this very month...
6. A sound that takes me back to my childhood is ____________.
Music...yes I know...easy choice...but I can place most of my life via music...I can almost say close to one or two years at a push when what song came out ‘cos I just link it somewhere in my memory to what I was doing...eg my first music 45” was in 1975 Alan Garrity (An SA singer) – I got 4 of them for my birthday. MY first big LP was Racey “Some girls l” – (British group) – 1976 or 1977 when I adored them at age 10/11. 1977 John Paul Young (Aussie) “I hate the music” and “Yesterday’s Hero” – I loved this guy. Long hair, loud music....1976 driving in a car with my elder cousins Neil Diamond's “Beautiful Noise”. 1978/1979 “On top of the World” Carpenters (I don’t think it came out that year, probably earlier around what 1974, but my mom sang it to me all the time around 1978 so....). And so the list goes on. There is literally no other ‘sound’ than ‘lots of sounds’.....
7. On average, once you've linked your hodgepodge post to mine how many other participant blogs do you visit? Do you ever come back to the Hodgepodge later in the day or even the day after to read posts?
At the moment I read about 4-5 blogs – mainly first the people who commented on my Hodge Podge but because time/internet is limited with studies for exams now, I don’t read too many more though I have visited a good number of bloggers from this list. The point is just to go back regularly, at the moment I’m a bit stunted there with time, but I keep at it ‘cos end Nov I will have 2 months of ‘time’....
8. Insert your own random thought here.
I have lost someone I loved dearly, 7 months now. It’s difficult to get over that loss, one goes through ups and downs – ups being “I am recovering” and downs being “ WTF??? Back to square 1”. My loss is of a very dear friend, and someone that filled my life daily with love and laughter and memories. I’ve tried to fill the gap with work and studies and attempts at ‘trying to recover’, but all this has had to be done ‘below the radar line’. I’ve been for a counselling session or two, I’ve written personally in my diary, I’ve cried buckets at the grave weekly, I’ve stamped my feet and shouted at the wind and the heavens...and I’ve had to keep this all below the public eye. Because as a dear friend, everyone expects me to move on. After all no one could have loved and lost him more than his family. And I empathise with them daily. Just....from out of sight....Knowing how bad I am taking his death, I cannot for the life of me imagine their daily struggles. I’m writing it here ‘cos I have to, I have to get it out, this mourning in private means I can’t move onto the next stage – of anger, of despair, of acceptance? - (so it feels to me) and here I’m Annonymous. You can like me or dislike me. You can read me or un-read me. But it’s something that I somehow somewhere have to rage rage and get it all out....I don’t know of any other way....
LG
1. How do you typically react in a sudden, extreme, pressure-filled crisis? Would we want you nearby in an emergency?
Well I’ve never really been in such an extreme situation so no idea really. I do feel that however I wouldn’t go into a total scream, and would be able to help out as best I can....
2. Caramel apple-caramel sundae-caramel corn-caramel macchiato...of the four, which carmel treat would you choose?
Caramel apple or sundae....
3. Is there such a thing as destiny? Explain.
Hmm. I believe that God has a ‘plan’ for us when we are born and that we are His children, but we often sway the path to getting there in terms of what we choose in life. I don’t for eg believe it was “destiny” or even “God’s will” that my brother shot himself at 21 years old. I believe we travel this road of life and we actually make our life through our choices. So I guess that’s a no to “destiny”. But in other ways I do believe in God.
4. What's your favorite piece of furniture? I'm referring to something currently in your possession as opposed to something on your wish list.
Not really worried about stuff like that. I love old bookcases, probably ‘cos they’re filled with books!! I have a kist which I inherited from my mom, nothing too fancy but I would say that is my most treasured piece of furniture and would certainly HAVE to take with me if I had to move anywhere.
5. Wednesday night marks the start of the 2011 Baseball World Series. Did you know? Do you care? Will you be watching? Ever been to a professional baseball game? If you're not an American do you find the title 'World Series' annoying or amusing?
Not an American so Baseball not on my map of sports. I find the Americans using “World Series” for any sport totally amusing and ridiculous but don’t waste my energy on disliking them. I’m certainly not going to change their minds so........As an “english speaking” person of the world however I do LOVE love love cricket...and yes we’ve started with cricket in South Africa and are playing the Aussies, my all time favourite opponents this very month...
6. A sound that takes me back to my childhood is ____________.
Music...yes I know...easy choice...but I can place most of my life via music...I can almost say close to one or two years at a push when what song came out ‘cos I just link it somewhere in my memory to what I was doing...eg my first music 45” was in 1975 Alan Garrity (An SA singer) – I got 4 of them for my birthday. MY first big LP was Racey “Some girls l” – (British group) – 1976 or 1977 when I adored them at age 10/11. 1977 John Paul Young (Aussie) “I hate the music” and “Yesterday’s Hero” – I loved this guy. Long hair, loud music....1976 driving in a car with my elder cousins Neil Diamond's “Beautiful Noise”. 1978/1979 “On top of the World” Carpenters (I don’t think it came out that year, probably earlier around what 1974, but my mom sang it to me all the time around 1978 so....). And so the list goes on. There is literally no other ‘sound’ than ‘lots of sounds’.....
7. On average, once you've linked your hodgepodge post to mine how many other participant blogs do you visit? Do you ever come back to the Hodgepodge later in the day or even the day after to read posts?
At the moment I read about 4-5 blogs – mainly first the people who commented on my Hodge Podge but because time/internet is limited with studies for exams now, I don’t read too many more though I have visited a good number of bloggers from this list. The point is just to go back regularly, at the moment I’m a bit stunted there with time, but I keep at it ‘cos end Nov I will have 2 months of ‘time’....
8. Insert your own random thought here.
I have lost someone I loved dearly, 7 months now. It’s difficult to get over that loss, one goes through ups and downs – ups being “I am recovering” and downs being “ WTF??? Back to square 1”. My loss is of a very dear friend, and someone that filled my life daily with love and laughter and memories. I’ve tried to fill the gap with work and studies and attempts at ‘trying to recover’, but all this has had to be done ‘below the radar line’. I’ve been for a counselling session or two, I’ve written personally in my diary, I’ve cried buckets at the grave weekly, I’ve stamped my feet and shouted at the wind and the heavens...and I’ve had to keep this all below the public eye. Because as a dear friend, everyone expects me to move on. After all no one could have loved and lost him more than his family. And I empathise with them daily. Just....from out of sight....Knowing how bad I am taking his death, I cannot for the life of me imagine their daily struggles. I’m writing it here ‘cos I have to, I have to get it out, this mourning in private means I can’t move onto the next stage – of anger, of despair, of acceptance? - (so it feels to me) and here I’m Annonymous. You can like me or dislike me. You can read me or un-read me. But it’s something that I somehow somewhere have to rage rage and get it all out....I don’t know of any other way....
LG
4 comments:
Sorry to hear of your loss. If there is any condolences in my following words...well, let's just say I hope it helps:
I lost both my parents many many years ago [going on 20 years for both] and the hurt is still something that pops up every once in a while. I think that's good. But what really consoles my ups and downs still today is remembering all the smiles and good times. No matter how long the loss has been, it's natural what you're going through.
Wednesday photo and HODGEPODGE
I am sorry to hear of your recent loss. I know that platitudes and empty words will be echoing all round you right now, so all I can say to try to help you is that you are going about it in the right way. You are dealing with things one step at a time and you can see the "next stage", which is healthy. Don't beat yourself up for having up days and down days - that's natural and you will come through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you from another cricket-loving corner of the world.
Pam (in England) :)
Thanks Sterling for the kind words
Thanks Anni...I am used to grief and loss - used to meaning had to go through several deaths in my life: my brother at 21 when I was 22, my dad soon thereafter, my mom 6 years ago and a wonderful friend 3 months thereafter, and now another best and beloved friend 7 months ago...I guess I understand the grieving process, just worried that at this rate I'll hit depression instead of 'getting over' the loss...and then I thought the other day....maybe I shouldn't be trying to get over it,just take every day by itself...
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